We have always tried hard not to wish our boy's life away and enjoy each moment with them. There are some moments when we think ahead with a little bit of longing- like when we're in the midst of tons of tantrums, or in sleep deprived hazes, but mostly we love each day and stage with our boys. But there are some moments when it becomes really clear to me how much I'm going to miss these early days. The other day I had changed Grant's diaper and he had been crying and protesting it. After we were done he crawled over and snuggled in my lap and then Collin crawled over, pulled up on me and was patting my back. As I sat there with my two boys I thought ahead to times when they will be too big to snuggle on my lap and might be too cool to spend a lot of time with their Mom. It makes me sad to think about it, but it also helps me to relish the little moments that I have right now. I love being a Mom. I feel so honored to have been given the opportunity to raise my boys. I make so many mistakes and have so much to learn, but they have unconditional love and endless amounts of forgiveness for me. They teach me so much. These early days can be exhausting and hard, but I'm really, really going to miss them and think back on them with fondness.
4 months ago